atourworst.org

I definitely forgot about this website, but apparently not someone that I care alot about. Which is why I’m really glad I never closed down this website when I had wanted to a couple of months ago. Sometimes it really does count writing things down in public where people can read them, and understand how the other feels.

Aside from that vague little paragraph, things are definitely looking up from my last post. Work definitely got alot better since then. I started to get noticed alot more for my efforts, and I get praise all the time for it. Not only that but apparently the senior recently “stepped down” so I have a shot at his position, but I’m not sure if I’m mentally ready for it. I think I am, I just lack the confidence.

Also in the job prospect is Charter. I got a call back from them a week ago, but I haven’t been able to get back to him because I got sick on Thursday and I’ve been dead since then. Hopefully it won’t look too bad, I’m just going to mention to him that I got the flu so hopefully I can still have a chance with them. If not, I won’t be too perturbed. I was planning on going part time with them to see if I liked it or not. That and I wanted to stay full time with Best Buy.

I also move into my new apartment on Saturday. I’m most definitely looking forward to it because it’s been three months since I’ve had my own place. Since January I’ve been in Ashley’s hair, but in and out during February/March since I crashed at a friend’s house during those months. I really owe her alot, and I plan on giving her, scott and audrey something nice for their new house as well as money I owe them for some bills I promised to help out with during my stay there.

So right now almost everything is looking up with the exception of one more aspect. My love life. I’m not really sure on the stance of it right now, but I’m pretty sure that this past weekend will make or break it. I really hope it made it, because I’ll be extremely happy. I know in my heart that he is most definitely my soulmate, my true love… People make mistakes all the time, so why shouldn’t I forgive him and learn to move on from it? I guess I’m just scared of getting hurt again if things do go like I hope for them to go.

If things go as he and I had talked about, I really do think we’ll get together and make it happen this time. I’ve never felt like this about anyone, so I’m definitely not going to fuck it up, or let him fuck it up again.

Work is questionable right now. I’m tired of feeling like my managers are trying to get rid of me, but how can I not feel like that when it’s partially true? I’m not a bad employee at all–it’s been the lies that have been coming out of my Senior’s mouth that is tarnishing my image.

Because I want to make sure I have a job, I started to apply to a couple of places. One of them being a cable tv and internet provider. It’ll be a full time Tech Support position that starts at $11.25/hour with benefits. A co-worker in my dept. also applied there so we’re both hoping to get the job.

Other then that, I’ve just been working. My car has been in the shop for almost three weeks now so I really haven’t been able to do too much lately and it’s frustrating. Hopefully my car is ready tomorrow, even though I won’t be able to get it (I work until after the place closes) so I’m off Tues/Weds so I’m shooting to have it by Tuesday!!

I’m horribly obsessed with wanting to own an Apple. I have awful credit so I would never get approved for financing on a laptop. I’ve resorted to signing up for one of those “do an offer, refer friends to do an offer, and get this for free!” deals. I know I may never get it doing those offers, but it can’t hurt to try out. I might even offer free domain/hosting or paypal some money to those who sign up under me.
So, if you’re interested, feel free to sign up, complete an offer, and e-mail me at riane@atourworst.org and I’ll either set up domain/hosting, or paypal you $15 for signing up.
Worse case scenerio: I wait until the summer and beg my parents to let me use their credit, and I’ll pay off the laptop on my own. I doubt that’d happen.

I received my schedule from work for next week. Shockingly I am actually scheduled OFF for V-Day. I was expecting to work close that night for some reason, but who knows, maybe they really don’t hate me that much. Though I did get my final write up today. That’s two write ups in one week, after almost six months of not getting one. I’m slightly pissed about it, but there’s nothing I could’ve done. My car is in the shop, and I depend on someone else for a ride. They should at least have some consideration for me, but.. that’s life.

Other then work I haven’t really been up to much lately. I’ve been trying to get Kelly to take care of her application for the apartment, but she’s been putting it off. I was under the impression she at least brought in an application and just needed to pay the fee, but according to the complex she hasn’t done so. I was expecting to go in on Saturday, pay the deposit and have an apartment to move into next week. Who knows if that’s going to be happening anymore. I’m about to say fuck it and move into a place by myself. Of course if I do that I’ll have to look into a second job. But I have found some really nice efficiency apartments downtown (Louisville).

Once I get moved in I really need to sit down and figure out what kind of money I still owe my credit card comanies (First Financial Bank, and Chase). I really want to give them some kind of payment so my credit doesn’t get that bad, but it’s close to it right now. I’m sure it’s already too late :\

I need to marry a rich man.