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The past month has been rediculous. I was going to move into an apartment with a friend of mine, but he ended up being completely nuts about a certain issue, so he didn’t go with it (with me.) SO I lost $200 from the deposit, which I already e-mailed him to make him pay me back.

I didn’t want to move back in with Ashley and her husband and burden them… So I’m not currently back at my old apt. It’s different/weird being back here, but I don’t mind it. I’m closer to work, so I’m not going through a tank of gas a week (you figure $25/week). Which is definitely fine by me.

Other then that, I’ve been trying to get re-settled here. Bought a desk last night at Target, and it took me a couple of hours to assemble it. I got bored, and walked away and then I ended up getting it finished around midnight.

This entry has taken too long to write; I’ll try to keep this site updated. I kind of miss it. I do know that I’m going to be working on holdfire.net, getting up a new design and transferring it to a new server, so I can up the plans (prices) and offer reseller packages. Tiiight.

I definitely forgot about this website, but apparently not someone that I care alot about. Which is why I’m really glad I never closed down this website when I had wanted to a couple of months ago. Sometimes it really does count writing things down in public where people can read them, and understand how the other feels.

Aside from that vague little paragraph, things are definitely looking up from my last post. Work definitely got alot better since then. I started to get noticed alot more for my efforts, and I get praise all the time for it. Not only that but apparently the senior recently “stepped down” so I have a shot at his position, but I’m not sure if I’m mentally ready for it. I think I am, I just lack the confidence.

Also in the job prospect is Charter. I got a call back from them a week ago, but I haven’t been able to get back to him because I got sick on Thursday and I’ve been dead since then. Hopefully it won’t look too bad, I’m just going to mention to him that I got the flu so hopefully I can still have a chance with them. If not, I won’t be too perturbed. I was planning on going part time with them to see if I liked it or not. That and I wanted to stay full time with Best Buy.

I also move into my new apartment on Saturday. I’m most definitely looking forward to it because it’s been three months since I’ve had my own place. Since January I’ve been in Ashley’s hair, but in and out during February/March since I crashed at a friend’s house during those months. I really owe her alot, and I plan on giving her, scott and audrey something nice for their new house as well as money I owe them for some bills I promised to help out with during my stay there.

So right now almost everything is looking up with the exception of one more aspect. My love life. I’m not really sure on the stance of it right now, but I’m pretty sure that this past weekend will make or break it. I really hope it made it, because I’ll be extremely happy. I know in my heart that he is most definitely my soulmate, my true love… People make mistakes all the time, so why shouldn’t I forgive him and learn to move on from it? I guess I’m just scared of getting hurt again if things do go like I hope for them to go.

If things go as he and I had talked about, I really do think we’ll get together and make it happen this time. I’ve never felt like this about anyone, so I’m definitely not going to fuck it up, or let him fuck it up again.

Work is questionable right now. I’m tired of feeling like my managers are trying to get rid of me, but how can I not feel like that when it’s partially true? I’m not a bad employee at all–it’s been the lies that have been coming out of my Senior’s mouth that is tarnishing my image.

Because I want to make sure I have a job, I started to apply to a couple of places. One of them being a cable tv and internet provider. It’ll be a full time Tech Support position that starts at $11.25/hour with benefits. A co-worker in my dept. also applied there so we’re both hoping to get the job.

Other then that, I’ve just been working. My car has been in the shop for almost three weeks now so I really haven’t been able to do too much lately and it’s frustrating. Hopefully my car is ready tomorrow, even though I won’t be able to get it (I work until after the place closes) so I’m off Tues/Weds so I’m shooting to have it by Tuesday!!

I’m horribly obsessed with wanting to own an Apple. I have awful credit so I would never get approved for financing on a laptop. I’ve resorted to signing up for one of those “do an offer, refer friends to do an offer, and get this for free!” deals. I know I may never get it doing those offers, but it can’t hurt to try out. I might even offer free domain/hosting or paypal some money to those who sign up under me.
So, if you’re interested, feel free to sign up, complete an offer, and e-mail me at riane@atourworst.org and I’ll either set up domain/hosting, or paypal you $15 for signing up.
Worse case scenerio: I wait until the summer and beg my parents to let me use their credit, and I’ll pay off the laptop on my own. I doubt that’d happen.